Im sexy and i know it
sad lives here
So I tried to do something good. I created a dual library so I could sync my moms phone with my computer but have different music. Well I didnt name the first one so it erased. All my playlists GONE! I thought that was the worst part but nope. I connect my phone today and it gives me the “this iphone was connected to a different itunes” because it WAS to the one that is gone. Yesterday I cracked the screen, so Im trying to get the info because Im probably getting rid of it *pours out all Berrys hope for life*
Ive accepted that 29 is going to be the worst year of my life. I don’t even complain when things happen anymore. I just accept that thats what my life is. I withdraw a little more with each blow. Ive been positive about it and Im now past that part. Since January Ive been dealing with blow after blow and I just wish there was an opt out of everything button.
My cousin has three children and today they tried my last nerve! I also learned I dont have as much compassion and love as I thought. Not that I dont love them but the crying for no reason gets old and I cant just let it go.
I can day dream but when someone tells me about their dreams I dont believe they are ever going to happen.
I cant find a cover so im sleeping at my cousins house without one.
I hopefully learn when I can start working tomorrow afternoon because momma needs money.
*yawn* night
I couldve kissed a girl and I didnt
I cant tell you the last time I kissed someone :( i had the chance today and I said no. Why? because in my mind Ive forgotten how it goes :( :( I learned a lot about myself today. I am a free spirit but I rarely step out of the box Ive put around myself and that makes me sad. When I have chances to do it I dont take them. I think today said a lot about my life.
Brunch with new people I didnt know. A chance to live the life I say I want but didnt take.
4-15-12
I want to use this as more of a online diary/remembrance thingy but the iphone app is crap-ola!
Anywho I am partially moved out of Maryland. Im in NY because a friend felt she needed me and she partially did. I spent wayyyy to much money like I knew I would if I came to NY. Thus pushing back everything I really want to do further.
I want my own place and I am sad it wont be soon. I want my car and that wont be soon either. I think I might take a real social media break ughhhhh. I dont think it slows me down but I do think I tend to use it as a crutch not to do things or stay where I am.
I guess its get naked night on my tumblr and I have came unprepared O_O
TT
I spent so much money on need things today.
Its Oreos bday and I bought a pack and some milk because I will pay HOMAGE
I think I love SMASH as a show and I hope it gets a few seasons
I gave my 30 day notice so a G will be moving somewhere (most likely Denver) in just a few weeks
My car is getting fixed…again
I didnt cry today
We dont talk anymore and I miss our awkward conversations and flirting
I just want to be on my feet again and I am willing to change states to have that
I will be 30 this year. I have nothing.
Today I didnt cry!
I also didnt feel like I couldnt go on. I also didnt feel so sad I wanted to stop talking. I also didnt feel as alone. I also havent had any weed.
